The fires are dying down and this momma is tired. We were finally able to put away most of our photographs, computers, my husband’s precious guitars and my little guy’s favorite toys. I was so proud of how my son handled the fire chaos. He said “ I am pretty sure we will not be evacuated mommy, but its a good thing we are ready and I don’t feel scared anymore”. I don’t want to toot my own horn, but isn’t that a pretty positive reaction form a 9 year old?
Well on to the Whole 30.
I want to tell you not measuring myself for 30 days is just about to KILL me. I am a creature of habit, borderline OCD crazy mom. I religiously have exactly one cup of coffee and then measure and shower every single day. Skipping this one step has been such a learning experience. Now when I get up and have my coffee I wander upstairs to boot up the shower and strip down to and stair at myself in the mirror. This is not an easy task because after the breast tumor I am still a bit terrified to look in the mirror. I have to avert my eyes just enough not too see my breast. I will take a quick glance but am so afraid to take a close look.
( I had a tumor removed in September of 2012, it is something called a wort tumor, I don’t know much about it but so far its benign so Yeah! However it can and probably will come back… boooo!)
What I am mostly gaging by is my gut. I mean it is the the reason I have to wear mom jeans. I am laughing at myself right now you know. I am probably a bonafide lunatic. As a matter of fact, I know I am rambling right now and I don’t really care, it has been a hard long week. I am hoping this week is not as tough.
Anyway my gut feels smaller, I am not sure if it is smaller because when your are wearing your birthday suit things can look smaller. So honestly I have no idea if I am gaining muscle or losing weight or gaining fat or losing muscle. However, I had bought a pair of pants a few days ago from Nordtroms. Cute light tan pants with a straight leg. They were just a tad snug on my mom gut but now they fit. Yep. I am now going to buy three pairs of different sized pants and try each one on every morning. ( is that cheating)
My favorite meal yesterday was a beef stir fry with carrots, bell pepper, onions and tomato. I know that beef was not free range. I gave myself a break because these fires have been messing up my schedule. I will be wearing my chef apron all week to make up for this past week.
Have a rocking day!